I have been writing a lot for competition, literary journals and journalistic endeavors recently, concentrating my effort on making a viable career from writing, instead of the blog which costs me more to run than I ever make from Patreon (my sincere thanks to my Patreon supporters, though! Thank you!. I have come to the conclusion that the effort and time it takes to write the blog is not paying off for me at all.
I have developed my voice on this blog, and enjoyed writing immensely, and might keep a scaled down version of the blog alive as an outlet for things that have no paying home, but that I still want to write.
I have to admit to feeling very disheartened recently. It is brutal getting rejection after rejection, and realizing my voice, which I am not prepared to compromise, is too gritty for a lot of the more refined outlets. I still think there is a place for my writing and I could make a success out of a writing career, but to be frank, nowadays that insistent voice telling me I am just not good enough gets louder and louder. I am at the point where I feel like giving up.
I guess I will take a week off or so, and come at things with a bit of rest. I have worked so hard to try and make a success of the only thing I am good at, and to be frank I feel like a huge failure.