There is a certain luxury to being afraid:
To have the privilege of fear.
To let that metallic twang
Shiver through your bones
Like a National guitar
Resonating with the
Vibration of self protection.
Flights of fancy
Fight for Survival
Butting airy heads
Against stark reality:
Fear doesn't allow
For such unnecessary
Battles -
It is too busy being
Afraid for all
That
Jazz.
Her blonde hair
Hangs sleekly
Dusting sharp
Collarbone
Rolling past
Expensive breasts.
She pays for
Protection
Against
Rough sleepers.
Day dreamers
Night walkers
Straight talkers
Powder sniffers
Potion smokers
Protection from
All of those
Who do not live
In her Marina
Wonderland.
She might allow
Herself a small
Shiver
When a tan skinned
Boy jogs past her window
Running.
She calls her attack dog
Ex cop
And says:
"It is suspicious,
That is all.
He is running
That is all
What is he running
Away from?"
But the boy is gone:
He was running
Back to me
Away from the
Violence
Of his father
The expectations
Of society
And towards
The ability
To make a
Better play
At third,
Heart health.
Aerobic fitness
...and away
From women
Who stand
In windows
Wondering
Why he is
Running.
Do not run
With my shopping,
I counsel him.
Do not run back
Home
No matter if
Your heart is skipping
Your bones
Feel like jumping
No matter if
You feel alive
Because I
Want you
Alive.
Always.
The luxury
Of fear
Rejected.
Who can live
Thata way,
Spontaneity
Suspended?
No, it is bad
Knowledge
Like cigarettes
And Vodka
And Orange
A bauble
For the rich
And the perpetually
Privileged
By skin
Or birth
Or something
Not earnt
Yet provided.
Every night
I lock my door
Luxuriously
Feeling able
To protect
Us from
Things
Outside
Less
Stable.
Head shaved.
Fingers crossed.
Yes, windows
Closed!
Doors
Locked.
It was scary that even one person has to feel this way. We all have some fear, but there are among us those that have mortal fear, and it should be unnecessary, but is! I don’t see it changing anytime soon. I wish it could.
Psalm 34:4
“I sought the Lord, and he answered me
and delivered me from all my fears”.
Philippians 4:13
” I can do all things through him who strengthens me”.
While we can try to do things on our own, God is able to help us in dealing with our fears. God is able to put things in order for us and to make things work out for our good. To overcome fear, we need to put God first. God is the king and there is nothing impossible for him to do.
There is much more to know about God. I post frequently on my blog about topics related to God. You are welcome to follow my blog to keep up with my content. https://christcenteredruminations.wordpress.com/
You might consider that your proselytizing is not welcome and not wanted and is a bit much pushing it on people who just dont give a shit. Jesus was just a man and look at the fuckign trouble he caused.
Thank you for the apology. I am not interested in buying whatever ‘peace’ you might be selling. Meaning no harm is no excuse, really, is it? You think you are doing a good thing, but you dont stop to realize the pain that has been caused by religion in people’s lives. Keep it to yourself.
Never consider fear as a “luxury” but can see your point…but for me it seems like a prison holding the full potential of life back from its future.
There has to be a future to enjoy, my friend. I do my best to keep us both alive and well. Fear gets people hurt…I just don’t know. Hope you are well.
I like this a lot. Love the line “He was running back to me.” Puts things in a totally different light.
Thank you. I am glad you liked it.
It was scary that even one person has to feel this way. We all have some fear, but there are among us those that have mortal fear, and it should be unnecessary, but is! I don’t see it changing anytime soon. I wish it could.
It has to change. It just has to.
Two quotes that I like concerning fear are:
Psalm 34:4
“I sought the Lord, and he answered me
and delivered me from all my fears”.
Philippians 4:13
” I can do all things through him who strengthens me”.
While we can try to do things on our own, God is able to help us in dealing with our fears. God is able to put things in order for us and to make things work out for our good. To overcome fear, we need to put God first. God is the king and there is nothing impossible for him to do.
If anyone reading is interested in building a relationship with God, I have a post on that here: https://christcenteredruminations.wordpress.com/2018/08/29/how-to-build-a-relationship-with-god/
There is much more to know about God. I post frequently on my blog about topics related to God. You are welcome to follow my blog to keep up with my content. https://christcenteredruminations.wordpress.com/
-All the best. May God bless you.
I appreciate the sentiment, but no thank you.
Sorry, I am not a Christian. Sending you my best wishes
ok. thank you
You might consider that your proselytizing is not welcome and not wanted and is a bit much pushing it on people who just dont give a shit. Jesus was just a man and look at the fuckign trouble he caused.
I mean no harm. My apologies. Peace be with you.
Thank you for the apology. I am not interested in buying whatever ‘peace’ you might be selling. Meaning no harm is no excuse, really, is it? You think you are doing a good thing, but you dont stop to realize the pain that has been caused by religion in people’s lives. Keep it to yourself.