closed french door with padlock and chain

The Luxury of Being Afraid

There is a certain luxury to being afraid:
To have the privilege of fear.
To let that metallic twang
Shiver through your bones
Like a National guitar
Resonating with the 
Vibration of self protection.
Flights of fancy
Fight for Survival
Butting airy heads
Against stark reality:
Fear doesn't allow
For such unnecessary
Battles - 
It is too busy being
Afraid for all

Her blonde hair
Hangs sleekly
Dusting sharp
Rolling past
Expensive breasts.
She pays for 
Rough sleepers.
Day dreamers
Night walkers
Straight talkers
Powder sniffers
Potion smokers
Protection from
All of those
Who do not live 
In her Marina
She might allow 
Herself a small 
When a tan skinned
Boy jogs past her window

She calls her attack dog
Ex cop
And says:
"It is suspicious,
That is all.
He is running
That is all
What is he running
Away from?"

But the boy is gone:
He was running
Back to me
Away from the
Of his father
The expectations
Of society
And towards
The ability 
To make a 
Better play
At third,
Heart health.
Aerobic fitness
...and away
From women
Who stand 
In windows
Why he is 

Do not run
With my shopping,
I counsel him.
Do not run back
No matter if
Your heart is skipping
Your bones 
Feel like jumping
No matter if 
You feel alive
Because I
Want you

The luxury 
Of fear
Who can live
Thata way,
No, it is bad
Like cigarettes
And Vodka
And Orange
A bauble
For the rich
And the perpetually
By skin
Or birth
Or something 
Not earnt
Yet provided.

Every night
I lock my door
Feeling able
To protect
Us from

Head shaved.
Fingers crossed.
Yes, windows


  1. Time Traveler of Life

    It was scary that even one person has to feel this way. We all have some fear, but there are among us those that have mortal fear, and it should be unnecessary, but is! I don’t see it changing anytime soon. I wish it could.

  2. christcenteredruminations

    Two quotes that I like concerning fear are:

    Psalm 34:4
    “I sought the Lord, and he answered me
        and delivered me from all my fears”.

    Philippians 4:13
    ” I can do all things through him who strengthens me”.

    While we can try to do things on our own, God is able to help us in dealing with our fears. God is able to put things in order for us and to make things work out for our good. To overcome fear, we need to put God first. God is the king and there is nothing impossible for him to do.

    If anyone reading is interested in building a relationship with God, I have a post on that here:

    There is much more to know about God. I post frequently on my blog about topics related to God. You are welcome to follow my blog to keep up with my content.

    -All the best. May God bless you. 

      1. The Paltry Sum: Detroit Richards

        Thank you for the apology. I am not interested in buying whatever ‘peace’ you might be selling. Meaning no harm is no excuse, really, is it? You think you are doing a good thing, but you dont stop to realize the pain that has been caused by religion in people’s lives. Keep it to yourself.

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